Change

So I took some time and read through all of my old posts. It's amazing how so much can change in a little over a year. Some things changed for the better and some for the worst, but the fact is almost everything changed. Hmmm, kind of makes and emotional girl like me want to cry. :) Go Figure!

I've never been a big fan of change. I love adventure and spontaneity, but I also love steadiness and dependency. Yeah I know I'm a strange case. The current changes in my life are great! Exciting and Fun! I can't wait, but at the same time part of me is still longing for the past. Why is it that as humans we can never be satisfied. You long for something and work and beg and push and when it finally happens it isn't near what you thought it would be and then you long for the past again. Is it selfishness? General discontent? Does any of this even make sense to anyone else? In my last post I was excited about the changes... now they are bittersweet.

I HATE PCC! Really! I know that is a strong word and I might get looked down upon for using it but it is reality. I HATE it! You couldn't pay me to go back there... but in the same thought I miss it! How WEIRD is that? I do miss the good points and my friends, man I miss my friends. I can't wait to finish college and 'begin' my life but that the same time I am SO SO SCARED of finishing college... what will I do?

Basically I long for change and then loathe it... Why?